[Backdated to NYE] Jax's Room [NWS eventually]

[nomoreinnocence]

There was no way she was letting herself be completely sidetracked this time, so she'd spent a good part of the day cooking - brownies, lasagna, salad, raspberry pie and garlic bread. She'd loaded everything except the lasagna and garlic bread, which were just about done, into bags, added a bottle of champagne and two glasses for midnight, and made her way across the hall.

She 'knocked' on the door with her foot since both her arms were full and waited for Jax to answer.

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[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

"Like what?" He asked, turning onto his side, pulling her with him so he could card through her hair.

[nomoreinnocence.livejournal.com]

She was shaking despite herself, eyes a little damp. "Anything that powerful and overwhelming."

[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

It's just sex, he was tempted to say, but he didn't. Instead, he leaned in, gently kissing her forehead, quiet as he held her.

[nomoreinnocence.livejournal.com]

God, he probably thought she was such an idiot. She took a deep breath, trying to pull herself together. "I'm fine," she whispered, kissing his chest. "I'm fine."

[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

He just smiled against her forehead. Canting his hips back, he pulled off the condom, tossing it, and tugged Lana against his chest. He was shit at this kind of thing, just hoping that she didn't take his not-talking as anything other than that.

[nomoreinnocence.livejournal.com]

She was used to guys who talked even less than Jax in bed, so she didn't think twice about it, except to hope he wan't lying there rolling his eyes at her while she couldn't see.

[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

After a moment not spent rolling his eyes, Jax asked, "You do the New Year's resolution thing?"

[nomoreinnocence.livejournal.com]

She shrugged, content to lie there against him, lightly tracing patterns on his chest. "Sometimes. They never seem to last long. You?"

[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

"Shit," he chuckled. "No. I mean if I were home, I might. But I'm not, you know? What's the point of it."

[nomoreinnocence.livejournal.com]

She smiled against his skin. "Well, they say that you stay at the village till you've learned some lesson. Maybe we should. See if that changes anything."

"Though... this is probably better than anything I can find back home. There I'll just be on the run the rest of my life."

[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

Jax's arm tightened around her. That wasn't right. "So, you want to stay here?" He asked, not judging. "This is better than back there, huh?"

[nomoreinnocence.livejournal.com]

She shrugged again. "Back home? I've got a multi-billionaire husband who'll move heaven and earth to find me once he discovers I'm not dead, which won't take him long. I'll never be safe, never be able to settle down or stop looking over my shoulder."

"All I've ever wanted is a family. A home of my own. I won't ever have that."

"And if he finds me..." She shuddered. "I'd die before I let him do that to me again. Protection isn't the only reason I carry a gun."

She couldn't quite say out loud that she'd kill herself first, but she figured he was smart enough to get it.

[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

After a moment spent glaring at the ceiling, Jax said, quietly. "Sounds like you should stay here. And I should take you to the firing range they got here. Make sure you know how to fire that thing."

[nomoreinnocence.livejournal.com]

"I'm in no hurry to learn whatever my lesson is," Lana admitted. "And I'd be glad to go with you, but I assure you I'm pretty damned good. Even your least favorite person would vouch for me there."

"If we ever manage to leave this room," she said with a smile he could feel against his skin. "As I recall you asked me out, but so far we've only made it in."

[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

Jax grinned. "You want a real date, huh?" He asked. "I guess we can do that."

But speaking of Gibbs. "You talk to him about me?"

[nomoreinnocence.livejournal.com]

"Might be fun," she said with a smile, which faded a bit at his next question.

"Yeah," she said softly. "He warned me against sleeping with you, said you were dangerous and anti-authority and whatever. I guess he could tell by my face, 'cause he asked me straight out if I'd slept with you and I couldn't lie. But I told him it was my choice and I knew the score and that you wouldn't hurt me, that I felt safe with you. Got him to agree to leave you alone."

[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

Eyebrows arching, Jax looked down at her. "Yeah?" Not that he trusted Gibbs. And he still had a score to settle. But that wasn't for now. But he did kiss her forehead again. "I won't hurt you."

[nomoreinnocence.livejournal.com]

"I know," she said, stretching up to kiss him. "I'm a terrible liar. Jethro would have known if I hadn't meant it."

[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

Kissing her, his hands slipping to cup the sides of her breasts, Jax pulled her on top of him again. "Terrible liar, huh?" He asked, grinning. "So if I ask you if you wanna do this again, I'll be able to know if you're telling the truth?"

[nomoreinnocence.livejournal.com]

She gasped then grinned down at him.

"I don't like it at all," she said making her face serious. "I think we should stop and maybe... play cards or something."

[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

"Fuck cards!" He had to laugh, pinning her to the bed. "I got a resolution. I make you come right at 12 midnight. Wanna?"

[nomoreinnocence.livejournal.com]

She blushed and laughed at the same time. "You mean I don't get to come again till then?"

[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

"Oh, shit," he teased. "You'll come a lot til then." Ducking, he started kissing at her neck. "That's my resolution."

[nomoreinnocence.livejournal.com]

"I don't know," she said half-seriously. "Three times already. I don't know how many more I have in me."

[son-ofanarchy.livejournal.com]

"Lana," he said, eyebrows cocked. "You're a woman. Enjoy it. You got lots more in you. Here," he offered, dimples on display. "I'll show you."